I am using my TENS unit for the first time in months. I can't walk. This is more pain than I have been in, in a while.
Holy shit, I used to live like this.
I'll get to a doc tomorrow. But I know the cause:
stress or
I've blown my disk again.
Fuck.
I've not..look, I don't normally start fucking crying when I am in pain.
I can deal with pain, but I am also totally alone right now.
Fuck sake.
I hate my goddamn back. I'd end it if I could. Cut it off. Remove it. Blow my back out with a single .40 glaser.
Fuck it.
Goddamn thing. My TENS isn;t enough. Not even close.
What do I do? Fuck sake my motorcycle safety foundation class starts tomorrow, with riding on Sat and Sun, and its not refundable. Fuck.
I can't WALK. How can I expect to sit in a class for five ghours? Or ride a goddamn motorcycle for eihght? FUCK.
FUCK!
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